of those sleepless nights...

That is me right now. I haven't been able to sleep well for quite some time! It is so frustrating because i am so sleepy but my mind just won't shut. Its just so awake. Arghh!!

I was so tempted to skip class today because as soon as my alarm rang, my mind decided to shut down and sleep. And, i was having a weird dream so that makes it even worst. Ended up reaching class 15 minutes late. Speed all the way. Thankfully i reached there safely.

I wonder why i keep dreaming funny things recently.

Day before yesterday, i dreamt that Mr Playful and I went for a trip together. As per usual, he is so sweet to me and such a gentleman. We were just relaxing in the lounge, holding hands and cuddling. Clearly thats a dream because for now, i doubt anything close to that is gonna happen.

And then, today, i dreamt that Serena was pregnant with a baby girl. Well, it was such a great news because eventhough she hasn't gone through the marriage ceremony, she is already legally married so its not a shotgun thing. BUT, the weird part was, I was pregnant with a baby boy *gasp*. Ok. i gotta *gasp* another time. AND, who is the father? Mr Tall! *gasp* even more! FYI, i didn't dream about the process of getting pregnant but just about me finding out i was pregnant. Then i had an argument with Mr Tall and he wants to claim the baby. He said "our baby" and i insisted it was "my baby" because i was pissed at him. Oh the drama. I can write a book/movie script out my dream seriously. 

Despite the fact that i was pregnant when i'm not even married, it felt good. It felt nice to know that there is a little person growing in me. It made me feel responsible and that i wanna protect the fetus. I know its not real but thats how i really felt. Is that a sign for something? People said before that what you dream at night is caused by your subconscious. So what is my subconscious telling me? Wait. Let me google. 

This is what HuffingtonPost.com said 

What do dreams about being pregnant mean?

"At its core, this dream is about creativity," Mead says. "Women literally create new life out of their bodies. If you dream of being pregnant, you are likely craving time to be creative, or 'dreaming up' a new and exciting creative project that will come into existence down the line. This could be as small as a home-based renovation project or a large-scale artistic work."

PHEW PHEW PHEW!! Lucky it doesn't mean that i really want to get pregnant. Praise the Lord!!  Although it feels nice to "think" that i'm pregnant, i doubt i want to be really pregnant at this stage of my life - single - no proper career - young

Ok. Moving on. 

I managed to meet up with Nick. YAY! I went out with him on Sunday to Chuup at Damansara Jaya for dinner and yesterday to Folger Phobia at Wisma Scope International for coffee. Both times were unexpected though. 

On Sunday, when he messaged me saying that he's picking me up and he's coming from Sunway, I had to dash upstairs to have a quick shower and then change my clothes. I was just wearing my typical gym clothes that i usually wear at home. And i did take a shower already but because we had water cuts and i went to check out Surya Yoga's Open Day, i just felt like taking another shower. 

Yesterday, my class ended 1 hour earlier. It was supposed to end at 4pm and I was supposed to wait for Sharon because she finishes at 5pm. Thankfully Nick hasn't head to Folger Phobia yet so he came and pick me and off we went. Folger Phobia uses the same coffee beans as The Kitchen Table. With all honesty, I think Folger Phobia serves it better but can't compare that much because we don't know the details of the coffee beans such as how is it roasted, the way the coffee is made etc. When i was working at The Kitchen Table, i tried it before and boy,it was bitter. Yesterday when Terrence, the Barista made it, i did not add sugar as well and it was bitter but not as bitter as the one at TKT. 

Nick's coffee however has been added brown sugar as per his request and he asked me to try and it was really good. Of course i added brown sugar to mine as well. Well, more like Nick helped me to add it. He is such a sweet person. Thanks to him, i'm starting to learn to like coffee and started trying new places.

Let me note down the places he brought/introduced to me:-

- Village Park Nasi Lemak

- POKC

- Restoran Sun Hin Loong(curry laksa)

- Chuup

- Folger Phobia

- Standing Theory(waffles)

The beautiful swan coffee art for my coffee at Folger Phobia. Aiyo. My coffee art is a big embarrassment! HAHA!!! Laugh die me! 

And Sharon and I decided to go to The Lunchbox at Monash for lunch. More like brunch. So yeah. She had buttercream fish and i had Nachocheese Chicken Chop as shown in the picture above. It was so good and sinful! Haha! Really gotta go to the gym during the weekend! 

Those quotes above are what i tell myself when i get upset after thinking about Mr Playful. Some things are out of my control and i can only do so much. I don't want to put so much hope into something i don't know can work out or not. I want it to work but "one hand clap got not sound". You get me? Lets hope the feeling is mutual because i don't mind waiting for him here despite the distance that we face sometimes.

Ok. Time to go back to work. Work life sucks! Thats all i can say about work! ARGHH!!!

During my lunch time, i did some thinking. And i've decided that Mr Playful is too good to be true. He has too many women hanging around him and i doubt that he will ever put his eyes on me. I've decided to move on. Let go of whatever feelings i have for him before it gets too deep. I should not hang on something that is not gonna happen. To add on it, i think i have been clapping with 1 hand all these while since he did not show any signs that he likes me. I'm a sucker when it comes to relationships.