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Hello hello!

I'm just posting this because its after lunch time and i'm sleepy and lazy.

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I saw this on Facebook and i can't help to agree. But, is it possible not to worry? I keep telling myself "stop worrying. if anything happens,it happens" but sometimes,i just can't help it but to worry unnecessarily. What do you usually do to stop yourself from worrying so much? I'm curious because i think i need all the ways i could possibly get. 

Saw this on Facebook as well. Everything is on Facebook. LOL!!!

Love this selfie that i took but i don't know whether did i actually remove my own eye brow when i blur the background. I remember swiping it across somewhere but i don't know its across my eye brow or not. HAHAHAHA!! Totally spoiled the selfie but its ok. I still like it. I am simple like that.

Remember i was talking about my cousin's bf opening a new pharmacy? Its finally opened!! So do drop by if you need anything. Its at USJ 9. I have the address somewhere but too lazy to look for it. Please fully utilised the power of Google.

Hello Mr Spidey!! He look so fit and macho!!

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I'm gonna go back on my words and rant a bit regarding "relationship".

I haven't been talking to him for quite some time now. Doesn't seem so long but it feels so long to me. He's probably out with some other girls now. I'm slowly adapting myself to not talking to him. I've privatized my Whatsapp account so i don't have to see his "last seen". It kills me to know that he saw my message but didn't reply me OR he actually went on Whatsapp but didn't be bothered to message me. Feels a bit stalker-ish i know so thats why its gotta stop. Well, it stopped. I have no interest to know where is he, what is he doing or who is he out with. Like i said previously, i wanted my guys to report to me what is he doing and all but now, i'm like meh..whatever. I had enough of worrying. He hurt me so badly that he didn't even realise. 

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Ok. Back to work.

Don't cry because its over. Smile because it happened.

Thats it. I am over all this relationship problems. I had enough. I talked to Serena and she said that he is just using me when he is bored. Note that we did not have any intimate relationship so basically, he is just using me to kill his time when he is bored. Ka Wai said that before but i just didn't wanna believe him because i was hoping he is better than that. Apparently not!

Serena says that JW reports to her about what he is doing or what is he about to do. I am not asking for much as i am not the clingy kind. As long i know your whereabouts, what are you up to and who are you hanging out with,i'm fine with it. It doesn't need to be of precise information. Example, "today i'm going out with G and H to watch a movie and then we're gonna head over to this restaurant". Just simple information like that will suffice and it is hard to do so? NO!

It hurts to think that we used to have a "thing" between us and now, its nothing. Like now when i'm sick. He doesn't even care about me and didn't even ask me how am i doing. Even a busy person would just send a text asking "how are you feeling?" or a simple "get well soon" and i'm pretty sure he's not that busy anyways. But no! No text,no calls or whatsoever. If anyone tell me its normal, then i'm telling you its not. Its absolutely not normal. If a guy likes you, he'll show his concern and cares.

No doubt its painful to finally realise that he's not into me and the fact that he doesn't even care a single bit. However, i'll get through it. I'll be fine and i'll meet someone better. Or maybe i should become a nun. Or maybe i should start researching on sperm banks.


you led me on. i've tried believing that what you've done for me is genuine. it was nice knowing you. i'm frustrated,pissed, disappointed and absolutely hurt. i thought you were different from all the others guys that i've met. you're not. so goodbye.

He's Just Not That Into You

Have you ever read that book? I know it has been released for quite some time now and i've heard of it but just didn't get to it.

Yesterday i was talking to Marcia about relationships and she told me to read this book to know better of guy's intentions. And, i actually read it within a few hours. I'm a very quick reader. Just lazy ;) Trust me. Its a good book to read when you are not sure about signals a guy is dropping. LOL!!! Perfect book for me at the moment huh!

Now, i'm procrastinating at work because the work i'm given is in need of some law knowledge and i have no idea what am i doing. Someone please save me!!!!

of those sleepless nights...

That is me right now. I haven't been able to sleep well for quite some time! It is so frustrating because i am so sleepy but my mind just won't shut. Its just so awake. Arghh!!

I was so tempted to skip class today because as soon as my alarm rang, my mind decided to shut down and sleep. And, i was having a weird dream so that makes it even worst. Ended up reaching class 15 minutes late. Speed all the way. Thankfully i reached there safely.

I wonder why i keep dreaming funny things recently.

Day before yesterday, i dreamt that Mr Playful and I went for a trip together. As per usual, he is so sweet to me and such a gentleman. We were just relaxing in the lounge, holding hands and cuddling. Clearly thats a dream because for now, i doubt anything close to that is gonna happen.

And then, today, i dreamt that Serena was pregnant with a baby girl. Well, it was such a great news because eventhough she hasn't gone through the marriage ceremony, she is already legally married so its not a shotgun thing. BUT, the weird part was, I was pregnant with a baby boy *gasp*. Ok. i gotta *gasp* another time. AND, who is the father? Mr Tall! *gasp* even more! FYI, i didn't dream about the process of getting pregnant but just about me finding out i was pregnant. Then i had an argument with Mr Tall and he wants to claim the baby. He said "our baby" and i insisted it was "my baby" because i was pissed at him. Oh the drama. I can write a book/movie script out my dream seriously. 

Despite the fact that i was pregnant when i'm not even married, it felt good. It felt nice to know that there is a little person growing in me. It made me feel responsible and that i wanna protect the fetus. I know its not real but thats how i really felt. Is that a sign for something? People said before that what you dream at night is caused by your subconscious. So what is my subconscious telling me? Wait. Let me google. 

This is what HuffingtonPost.com said 

What do dreams about being pregnant mean?

"At its core, this dream is about creativity," Mead says. "Women literally create new life out of their bodies. If you dream of being pregnant, you are likely craving time to be creative, or 'dreaming up' a new and exciting creative project that will come into existence down the line. This could be as small as a home-based renovation project or a large-scale artistic work."

PHEW PHEW PHEW!! Lucky it doesn't mean that i really want to get pregnant. Praise the Lord!!  Although it feels nice to "think" that i'm pregnant, i doubt i want to be really pregnant at this stage of my life - single - no proper career - young

Ok. Moving on. 

I managed to meet up with Nick. YAY! I went out with him on Sunday to Chuup at Damansara Jaya for dinner and yesterday to Folger Phobia at Wisma Scope International for coffee. Both times were unexpected though. 

On Sunday, when he messaged me saying that he's picking me up and he's coming from Sunway, I had to dash upstairs to have a quick shower and then change my clothes. I was just wearing my typical gym clothes that i usually wear at home. And i did take a shower already but because we had water cuts and i went to check out Surya Yoga's Open Day, i just felt like taking another shower. 

Yesterday, my class ended 1 hour earlier. It was supposed to end at 4pm and I was supposed to wait for Sharon because she finishes at 5pm. Thankfully Nick hasn't head to Folger Phobia yet so he came and pick me and off we went. Folger Phobia uses the same coffee beans as The Kitchen Table. With all honesty, I think Folger Phobia serves it better but can't compare that much because we don't know the details of the coffee beans such as how is it roasted, the way the coffee is made etc. When i was working at The Kitchen Table, i tried it before and boy,it was bitter. Yesterday when Terrence, the Barista made it, i did not add sugar as well and it was bitter but not as bitter as the one at TKT. 

Nick's coffee however has been added brown sugar as per his request and he asked me to try and it was really good. Of course i added brown sugar to mine as well. Well, more like Nick helped me to add it. He is such a sweet person. Thanks to him, i'm starting to learn to like coffee and started trying new places.

Let me note down the places he brought/introduced to me:-

- Village Park Nasi Lemak

- POKC

- Restoran Sun Hin Loong(curry laksa)

- Chuup

- Folger Phobia

- Standing Theory(waffles)

The beautiful swan coffee art for my coffee at Folger Phobia. Aiyo. My coffee art is a big embarrassment! HAHA!!! Laugh die me! 

And Sharon and I decided to go to The Lunchbox at Monash for lunch. More like brunch. So yeah. She had buttercream fish and i had Nachocheese Chicken Chop as shown in the picture above. It was so good and sinful! Haha! Really gotta go to the gym during the weekend! 

Those quotes above are what i tell myself when i get upset after thinking about Mr Playful. Some things are out of my control and i can only do so much. I don't want to put so much hope into something i don't know can work out or not. I want it to work but "one hand clap got not sound". You get me? Lets hope the feeling is mutual because i don't mind waiting for him here despite the distance that we face sometimes.

Ok. Time to go back to work. Work life sucks! Thats all i can say about work! ARGHH!!!

During my lunch time, i did some thinking. And i've decided that Mr Playful is too good to be true. He has too many women hanging around him and i doubt that he will ever put his eyes on me. I've decided to move on. Let go of whatever feelings i have for him before it gets too deep. I should not hang on something that is not gonna happen. To add on it, i think i have been clapping with 1 hand all these while since he did not show any signs that he likes me. I'm a sucker when it comes to relationships.

L-O-V-E

" its not about who hurt you or broke you down. its about who was always there and made you smile again"

Do you agree with the above statement?

I am pretty sure that i agree with it but then again, the person who was always there and made you smile again can also hurt you and break you down. And when that happens, its gonna be worst than before.

I know because i am in that situation. I would not say i'm hurt and broken down because it took distance and time for me to get over Mr Tall. I still miss him a lot and i still want to see him achieving all the he wants to achieve and my heart still beats really fast when i receive his messages BUT i know we are at the point where we will not move away from-friends.

I was happy, slept well, eat well and kept positive until i met Mr Playful. Instead of putting down their name or initial, i shall state them as the characteristic that i think is best suited for them. So yeah. Mr Playful is almost like Mr Tall. Except, Mr Playful is much more sociable than Mr Tall. Mr Tall can be quite reserved(but he still likes talking about himself). He's reserved in the sense that he doesn't like going out, he prefers to stay at home or do some sports training whereas Mr Playful is always out and about. Mr Tall is more honest about what he feels i.e. if he doesn't want to do something, he won't(in another words, stubborn). I'm not too sure what about Mr Playful but i think Mr Playful often please others so i doubt he is like Mr Tall. However, i reckon Mr Tall is not as gentleman as Mr Playful and not as thoughtful too.

The common characteristic that both of them has? They both don't like to reply messages. Well, they do reply but then they will MIA all of a sudden. Mr Playful is worst than Mr Tall though. Very much worst actually. I think its a guy's thing.

OK...i have swerved quite far from my point. My point is Mr Playful is the one to make me smile the crazy cheeky smile. I used to smile that way whenever i was with Mr Tall or when i think back about the memories we had. But then again, Mr Playful makes me frustrated all the time. He is such a confusing human being and its hard to read him. Almost like Mr Tall but Mr Tall shows it very obvious.

ARGHHH!! Judging from all those mumble jumbles that i've written, i think you can tell that i'm frustrated to the point i am not putting out my points properly. Seriously! Mr Playful, if you don't think anything can work between us, then don't show it otherwise. Whenever i tell myself that things between me and Mr Playful will not work out, then there he is, proving that i'm wrong. COME ON!!!

Too much words in this post..AGAIN. Let me see what cute pictures i can post to make it more cheerful.

ooooh. Choco's picture when he was just 6 months old. My work computer wallpaper =)

the 2 pigs. They do make me smile so i hope they make you smile too =)

OK. I'm gonna end this post already or else there will be more words accompanying it. Toodles Tinglies and have a good weekend.

Absolutely Disgusted

Hello Tinglies

So how many are you single(like me *high 5*)? And how many of you have a partner?

Why am i asking this question? Explanation as follows ;)

So, i have this Facebook friend, a Malaysian Chinese in his thirties and living in a different state as i am. So, recently, he has been posting regarding his newfound partner(a Vietnamese). He just got together with her (i have no idea whether is it official or non-official) but he has been calling her his "wifey". WTF. Can this "wifey" title be used so randomly? Another friend of mine also have been called her partner's wifey when their relationship is so unstable and i'm guessing is just mainly sex based. I'm not judging here but its clearly written in her Facebook.

So back to that Malaysian Chinese. Yesterday, he posted quite a few status regarding their breakup. We are guessing that she found someone better and left him. He seemed so heartbroken, saying stuffs like our love has ended, don't think of him(which i don't think she will) etc etc. And today, he appeared on my Facebook news feed again, with a picture of him with a new Vietnamese girl saying that he's feeling lovely wtf and in the comment, he said she loves him and he loves her. BIG WTF!! Err hello? Break up yesterday and today found new girl and some more say its love?

That absolutely disgust me and hence the title. He found a new partner, good for him! But saying that he loves her after just going through a break up less than 24 hours? That is disgusting. How can this be so easy? How can human heart changes so quickly?

My faith in men is gone. I have no idea what guys are after and what i even more don't understand is how can they not be serious in relationships or towards how they feel. Probably thats the reason i'm single.



A note to you:-

Mind you, I am not desperate for a relationship. In my opinion, if it happens, it happens. If you are interested in me, you gotta make the move. I am not gonna sit here and just carry on hoping that you will ask me out. Whatever it is, the ball is in your court. Like it or not, I still think that guys should still make the first move. Or else, I will just carry on living my life until someone who is brave enough to ask me out comes along. 

Ok. Enough ranting. Heading out with YL to Jojo Pan Mee for lunch and Epicuro for coffee and dessert later. Might post some pictures. Or might not.

Till then, Toodles!